Kirk would not have called it a stupid question, but perhaps silly given his reputation. He was not exactly known for being celibate, despite his captain status - he just usually kept well away from crew members. Fenris was the obvious exception, even though his status as a member of Kirk's crew should have put him in the similar position.
But after so long with him, wanting him, he couldn't deny himself what they both clearly desired anymore. He couldn't bear it if the walls he erected between everyone else and himself rose between them. It would kill some sliver of his heart, tiny but important, and he knew he would never be the same man. He knew Fenris would never forgive him either, and that he could not bear.
He twisted beneath the other, reaching for a nearby drawer and drawing it open, taking out a tube and pressing it into Fenris' hand. "It might feel a bit odd - self warming," he explained, hooking his leg around the elf's hips and raising himself up again, grinding his cock against the lyrium threaded skin.
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But after so long with him, wanting him, he couldn't deny himself what they both clearly desired anymore. He couldn't bear it if the walls he erected between everyone else and himself rose between them. It would kill some sliver of his heart, tiny but important, and he knew he would never be the same man. He knew Fenris would never forgive him either, and that he could not bear.
He twisted beneath the other, reaching for a nearby drawer and drawing it open, taking out a tube and pressing it into Fenris' hand. "It might feel a bit odd - self warming," he explained, hooking his leg around the elf's hips and raising himself up again, grinding his cock against the lyrium threaded skin.